Nice things, worries and confessions

Confession 1: I feel slightly guilty about not updating my blog for so long. I haven't even written about our awesome trip to New York!

Confession 2: My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a while now.

Confession 3: Sometimes when I see really horrible children or I see frazzled unattractive parents, I am glad that we don't yet have children. I don't know why the appearance of the parents makes a difference, but it does somehow.

Worry 1: I worry that when we do get pregnant my back will hurt so bad the whole time. I don't know if I can handle that given my history with back/leg pain. I am just at the tail end of another episode similar to last summer. At least this time I only had one night of no sleep and I knew enough to go and get some strong pain meds asap. But when you're prego you can't take strong pain meds right?

Worry 2: I worry that my friends will start giving me the fade because I'm so bad at returning phone calls. I don't mean to be that way. It's just that, for example, sometimes I can't call you back right away because my leg hurts really bad, or I'm loopy on vicadin. For some reason texting/emailing is so much easier for me. I'm trying to be better at it though. Don't fade me out just yet!

Worry 3: I get really worried when birds get too close to me. Like pigeons for instance. Birds like that. They're no good. They can poop on you, or they could try and land on you and their nasty little feet would get caught in your hair and it'd be a big scene. Oh one more confession... I'm kind of afraid of birds for the reasons stated above.

Nice things: I feel very overwhelmed by some of the nice things/people that I have in my life. I was thinking about it earlier today and it made me smile. Here are a few

My husband told me to go back to sleep after church (on account of my condition) today. During those 2 hours he prepared the house for our guests this evening. He did ALL the cleaning and folded up like 2 weeks worth of laundry that was just lying around in piles. He picked up the dog poop in the back yard and then brushed our dogs with the "furminator" so that they didn't look like mangy raggamuffins. Then when I started cooking, he stayed and helped me do that. After dinner he cleaned everything up. He's so awesome.

I left church early today because I didn't feel well. I had to find a sub to take over my sunbeam class. The lady I asked was so gracious and she just told me to go on home and feel better. I don't even know her that well.

The people I work with are so helpful all the time. Not to mention funny, smart and the type of people who have my back no matter what.

My parents are moving to Panama and while they are gone, they'll be letting us use quite a few of their things in our house.

The friends that came over tonight for dinner are friends that I have had for at least 20 years. That's so cool.

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